‘I broke up with my boyfriend’

Kristin Gleis
Mar 23, 2010

Now that March is behind me, I am striving to obtain my goal of losing 100 pounds.

At this time, I have about 78 pounds to lose. Now that I am getting myself back on track, I am certain I will be able to reach my goal by November. I am looking forward to buying one of those little black dresses for 2010.

I recently have had a number of issues in my personal life and I want to write about them, since writing is a form of therapy for me. The comments I receive are also part of the therapy.

Toward the end of February, I broke up with my boyfriend of two years. For the most part, we had a good relationship. I will not say that we had a healthy relationship because I am so insecure about my weight and my self-esteem is non-existence.

My ex is 6 foot and 2 inches and super, super skinny, I would tell him he probably only weighed about 120 pounds. In reality, he weighed about 190, but since he is so tall, he looks very skinny.

My insecurities about my weight would cause me to make accusation to him that were untrue. I would often get nasty with him about how I thought he was looking at skinny girls. He would tell me that if he wanted to be with a skinny girl, he would be.

My mind, on the other hand, told me differently. He once told me when two thin people get together it’s like rubbing two sticks together trying to start a fire, “a little cushion was good,” he would tell me. After time, my inability to control my crazy thoughts drove us apart.

Since I have been working out and losing weight, my self-esteem is starting to surface. It’s kind of sad that it had to happen after the relationship came to an end. Everything happens for a reason though, I believe.

My whole life, I have always been the “big” girl with guy friends. The guys I hang out with or the guys I try to talk thought because I am overweight I could not be as “fun” or as “cool” as that 115-pound girl they see in the magazines.

I would like to enlighten those men. I’m sure I’m a whole lot more fun than those girls. I’m real. I’m not going to go out with my friends and just order water because I am worried what people might think if they saw me eat. I used to be that way. Now, I know everyone eats, you have to. You just don't have to have a cheeseburger, French fries and a large Coke.

Now that I’m single, I have extra time on my hands to dedicate more time and energy into working out and becoming that healthy person I know is inside of me. I’ll also be able to turn heads once the weight is off.  Let’s see how long I stay single.

Comments

curious

Girl, you will not be single long at all. You are beautiful!!
The guys will be beating your door down!!
Stay on track. You can do this! Sheila

Leslie524

I love ya girl..ur just fine with out him. You and ur kids deserve sooo much better. U deserve someone who will love you for YOU, not what what u can do for him or give him.

SHERI

It's time to worry about yourself and everything else will fall into place.......you're doing a great job, keep it up!!

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KGleis

I would just like to give everyone an update as of Today April 8th, I am down a total of 24.2 lbs ..... Only 76 pounds to goal !!! I'm taking it 1 day at a time .... Kristin

SHERI

CONGRATS on your 24lb loss...........you are doing awesome!!!!!!

Yup

Even as a lifelong Democrat I have to say the senator has always come across as a very decent, down to earth man of integrity. A true public servant, and a job well done.

Anonymous

How does that sound???

Winston Smith

What? We need the guberment to spend its taxpayer money on reminding citizens not to live like pigs?

What’s next, guberment subsidized home cleaning services and pest control?

Winston Smith

Do you want a proxy for the U.S. debt situation with unfunded govt. provided health and welfare benefits as far as the eye can see?

I use Argentina.

The Argentine govt. recently nationalized its country’s private pension system and through that theft of its assets now has controlling stakes in some of its county’s major companies:

“By taking over the pension funds and their assets, the government-run national pension administrator, ANSES, now holds significant stakes in some key firms. It owns 25% of power distributor Edenor; 24% of Banco Macro; and 23.5% of steel producer Siderar.’

‘All told, the state owns shares in around 40 corporations, including banks, public utilities, energy companies and even Argentina's largest media conglomerate, Grupo Clarin.

‘Because of this, the capital market will be much more dependent on state decisions,’ said Argentine Research analyst Roberto Drimer.”

This situation is not unlike Nazis Germany with its economic policies of National Socialism or the planned economies of the USSR and other communist regimes.

(See: http://online.wsj.com/article/SB...)

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Anonymous

Despite the winter storm? Was this an outdoor game?

Anonymous

You should add "duh" behind your name.

I'll tell ya, these comment boards sure bring out the morons.

Anonymous

You should look up the word "facetious". Or maybe you need a book with pictures....

MORON!

too funny.....

Anonymous

You can spell big words, isn't that special!!!

Anonymous

I see the drunks from huron lost another!

Gulliver

HEY WINSTON, Once again you crack me up (LOL LOL) with your quote - "What we need the guberment to spend taxpayer dollars to remind citizens not to live like pigs?" It's so simple, yet so true that I do find it laughably rediculous.

Yup

Even as a lifelong Democrat I have to say the senator has always come across as a very decent, down to earth man of integrity. A true public servant, and a job well done.

Anonymous

How does that sound???

Winston Smith

What? We need the guberment to spend its taxpayer money on reminding citizens not to live like pigs?

What’s next, guberment subsidized home cleaning services and pest control?

Winston Smith

Do you want a proxy for the U.S. debt situation with unfunded govt. provided health and welfare benefits as far as the eye can see?

I use Argentina.

The Argentine govt. recently nationalized its country’s private pension system and through that theft of its assets now has controlling stakes in some of its county’s major companies:

“By taking over the pension funds and their assets, the government-run national pension administrator, ANSES, now holds significant stakes in some key firms. It owns 25% of power distributor Edenor; 24% of Banco Macro; and 23.5% of steel producer Siderar.’

‘All told, the state owns shares in around 40 corporations, including banks, public utilities, energy companies and even Argentina's largest media conglomerate, Grupo Clarin.

‘Because of this, the capital market will be much more dependent on state decisions,’ said Argentine Research analyst Roberto Drimer.”

This situation is not unlike Nazis Germany with its economic policies of National Socialism or the planned economies of the USSR and other communist regimes.

(See: http://online.wsj.com/article/SB...)

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On topic: Read previous comment.

Anonymous

Despite the winter storm? Was this an outdoor game?

Anonymous

You should add "duh" behind your name.

I'll tell ya, these comment boards sure bring out the morons.

Anonymous

You should look up the word "facetious". Or maybe you need a book with pictures....

MORON!

too funny.....

Anonymous

You can spell big words, isn't that special!!!

Anonymous

I see the drunks from huron lost another!

Gulliver

HEY WINSTON, Once again you crack me up (LOL LOL) with your quote - "What we need the guberment to spend taxpayer dollars to remind citizens not to live like pigs?" It's so simple, yet so true that I do find it laughably rediculous.