So these past few weeks have been really different for me. The reason for that is my new trainer, Ken Cutcher of Anytime Fitness.
His workouts are really drilling me. I feel like when I'm at the gym with him, it is boot camp.
Not that that is a bad thing cause I sweat so much more, it's just he won't allow me to give up. I tried stopping during an exercise the other day because I physically couldn't hold the position anymore, but nope. Get back up. Do not give up. There's no letting up with him.
Ken has also taught me something called P.R.I.D.E. Personal Responsibility In Daily Efforts. I need to be the one responsible for me. No one else is going to do it for me.
Every day I need to put my best effort forward and if I don't, I know I will land up back at 263 pounds. I can get all the encouragement and negativity in the world, but in the end that doesn't matter. It's about me doing what's best for me.
Throughout this competition, I laid my life out there for everyone to read. I felt that was the easiest way to connect with other people who may have the same problems in life and feel there is no hope.
I have gotten a lot of negative responses about that, but in the end who cares. I did what I had to do for me and I have had a lot of people come to me and thank me for doing what I did.
With only one month to go, unless there is a miracle, I know I won't win this competition, but with my trainer and Anytime Fitness helping me out, my personal competition with myself will last a lifetime.