Well, what can I say about this past week/month. Basically, it wasn't my best, but in reality it was an eye-opener for me.
This whole challenge has really been a struggle for me, but after talking to a good friend of mine, I realized I need to take some time for me and my family.
Therefore until further notice, I will not be working out with my trainer, Kevin Gallagher of Anytime Fitness. I did this for a couple reasons.
First, in the past few months I've had to cancel on Kevin a lot. Whether it was due to my kids being sick, schedule conflict, husbands work schedule, whatever it was, I had to cancel. And personally, that's not fair to Kevin.
He has volunteered his time, taking away from training actual paying clients and for me to have to cancel constantly isn't fair to him.
Second, I did think to try and move away from this challenge a little. Try and do my "own" thing. My own workouts. My own diet. On my own time. I've done it once before for a week and did fairly well; now, I want to see if I can go longer.
For those of you that have followed me, you would of read that I acquired a "friend" about the beginning of June.
That "friend", after reading my blog and seeing me struggling had contacted me and wanted to help me lose weight.
This "friend" is Dr. Steven Prentice. He is a chiropractor here in Sandusky. Now most of you reading this might think, "Oh, he's a doctor so she must be taking medicine to lose the weight." That is absolutely 100 percent not true.
Dr. Prentice a few years back lost 100 pounds. He knows what it's like to struggle and to have your ups and downs. His encouragement has actually been my motivation the whole time.
Even when I was at my worst, like now, gaining weight, he's right there to pick me up and keep me going. And even after this challenge is over, he's told me whenever I need him, I can call upon him.
I really give him a lot of credit for seeing my struggles when I was at 37 pounds lost five months into this and was crying out so badly to get to that 50 pounds by my birthday.
And without him, I don't think I would of ever achieved it. His advice on nutrition and weight loss has been absolutely phenomenal. And that I will take with me the rest of my life.
Just recently we talked about what will happen next year when all the "fame" is gone. And truthfully I have a great outlook on life.
I've been able to realize now how strong I really am. How I've been able to overcome a rape, a family of domestic violence and just a not so good life in general. And look at me now. I'm stronger than I've ever been physically, mentally, and emotionally.
So in the end, I may not be the "winner," but for me I know I am and will continue to be. I love my life the way it is. I love my new look and am looking forward to even a better happier, healthier look next year.