BLOG: Clark: 'It is a battle to put the brakes on'

Ellyn Clark
Oct 5, 2010

This past week was week 40 of the FIT Challenge. Only 12 weeks left in the competition. Time has dragged but at the same time has flown. Can anyone relate to that statement?

Twelve weeks does not seem like a whole lot of time to lose another 25 pounds. 

To reach my goal, I will have to lose an average of 8.3 pounds per month. At this point in the competition, for me personally, that seems unrealistic. Not that it's completely impossible; I just don't see it happening.  

I've reached a point where the weight is going to come off slower than it has for the past nine months. Why? From what I've read, and you all know how much I like to read, the most common reason is: The closer people get to their healthy body weight, their metabolic rate tends to decrease. That last sentence has reminded me of all the times I've lost weight and gained it back. It has reminded me of all the ups and downs my weight has taken.  

For the past few weeks, I've sporadically been reflecting upon the times in my life where I've had weight gains and weight losses. Back in high school, my heaviest weight was 115 pounds. That was 29 years ago, and I thought I was too heavy then. My heaviest weight of my life is when I began this competition, at 210 pounds.

Time sure can have a way of ravaging a body. Thus, I have come up with a name for a metaphoric roller coaster ride I call, "the Weight Ravager Of Time." 

I have ridden the Weight Ravager with its up and downs for far too long. These hills have labels, such as multiple births, several various broken bones, seven surgeries, bad eating habits and lack of exercise. And ya know what? I'm tired of bein' on this ride!  

I've made up my mind, I'm gettin' off. If I don't get off, this ride and stay off, it's gonna kill me. How many of you are on this same ride?

So how do we get off? How do we get off this ride called the Weight Ravager of Time? By finding your motivation. By making a decision.

My motivation was at 210 pounds. It was difficult for me to climb the stairs. It was difficult for me to get in and out of our pickup truck without help. It was looking at photographs and seeing this overweight, unhappy, person looking back. 

It was the thought I was a walking heart attack. It was the thought that I won't be around to see my kids have kids. Find what will motivate you to get off the Weight Ravager.

Once you find your motivator, your next step is more difficult. It's about making the decision to WANT to use your motivator. Using your motivator means stopping the ride so you can get off. This takes time and can be a daunting experience. So many doubts. Can I do it? Will I do it? Will I ever be able to stop the ride and never ride it again? How hard will it be? One would never jump off a real life roller coaster, that would be suicide. You have to wait 'til the ride comes to a complete stop before you get off.

Another way to stop the ride. Eating right and exercising on a regular basis. These are the brakes.  

I told my youngest sister, who struggles with her own weight issues, it's a battle to put the brakes on. You have to WANT to make the commitment to use the brakes. Do you WANT to?