I would like to start by clearing up a few issues that I dealt with last week after the November issue of FIT Magazine was published.
First, I did not quit going to the gym because I’m lazy or I’m giving up. I stopped going to the gym for a few reasons: issues with children and being short on money to pay the sitter, but the major reason is my own insecurities with the way I look.
Every time I go to the gym to exercise, no matter where I am, be it the YMCA or Anytime Fitness, I feel out of place and uncomfortable.
About a month ago, I was exercising and I happened to see a very attractive, fit, young girl exercising, too. She was using the chin-up/ pull-up bar, while talking with two men who appeared to be 10-15 years older than her. The men were admiring the girl, just like me.
Then it hit me: Would these two men be chatting it up with an overweight woman who is trying to lose weight to feel more attractive and become healthier? I honestly do not think so. That’s when I started to feel uncomfortable again. When I am exercising in the comfort of my own house or I’m outside walking, I’m not thinking about who is looking at me or what someone is thinking.
I am still working on losing weight, though. This past week, I lost 7 pounds. I now weigh 223, which is a loss of 31 pounds so far. I know that I only have about a month and a half left in this challenge, but I have years left in the long run. I know that I did not meet the competitive needs of the challenge, but I am happy that I have lost the weight I have.